If post-abortive mothers and fathers are honest with themselves, they’ll admit the pain they have experienced. Regret and sorrow follow them.
The only remedy to achieving peace once more is to seek Jesus Christ’s forgiveness.
Today we’ll learn what can happen when this truth gets ignored.
Abortion hurts women, there’s no two ways about it. Not only does it kill babies, but it permanently wounds each post-abortive woman.
And how can it not?
There is nothing more unnatural than a mother having her own child killed.
But don’t just take my word for it. I will share with you now excerpts from a first-person testimonial of a post-abortive woman named Deborah. The autobiographical account can be read in its entirety in the book, Aborted Women: Silent No More, by Dr. David Reardon.
Deborah obtained four abortions, for four babies from four different men, in addition to have three live births and multiple miscarriages. Each successive abortion became easier to handle, she claims, thanks to the lies she told herself.
Here are excerpts from Deborah’s story:
“When I left the hospital [following my first abortion], I put up a wall within myself with a big sign that said, ‘Don’t ever think about it again.’ I used to think that wall was put there by God to protect me… But now I know that that wall was put there only by the Enemy, but also by those doctors and nurses, the medical staff. They put it there to protect themselves…
I began to realize that everything I had done—the abortions, drugs, affairs, depressions—had all been a result of the circumstances of my first abortion.
“I found that in talking to other women about abortion, their decisions to abort satisfied something in me. It made me feel better about what I had done. It was almost like I was gloating in their misery…
“I’ve thoughts about why I kept doing that to myself, getting pregnant and having abortions in an endless cycle. I feel like I did it because I had to prove to myself that I was right. I had to prove to myself that it didn’t hurt, that I could go through it over and over again and it wouldn’t hurt. The more I did it, the less it hurt, physically and emotionally. I deadened myself to pain—to right and wrong. Until finally, with the last one, it didn’t hurt at all…
“I started to think about my life then—something clicked in me. I began to realize that everything I had done—the abortions, drugs, affairs, depressions—had all been a result of the circumstances of my first abortion. After that, I couldn’t make any decisions at all. I knew that all the sex and drugs were wrong, but my mind was so clouded with negatives that I wasn’t in any position to get my life straightened out…
“[T]en years down the road you look back at your actions, and you realize that you were just living a bunch of lies, and that each lie just seems to compound the other ones and force them deeper and deeper into my [sic] subconscious.
“Fortunately for me, I had just received the Lord…
“Please go public with my story. I have nothing to hide. In fact, I have everything to share. If my stories, no matter how badly they hurt or embarrass me, will prevent one baby from being destroyed, it’s worth that to me; it’s worth a lot.”
–Deborah’s post-abortive testimony is found in full on pages 81-88 in the chapter titled, “Feminists Who Abort” (all emphasis my own).
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Powerful testimony is it not? Just goes to show how abortion defies the Natural Law.
Do you have any thoughts on Deborah’s story? Might you be able to relate to her, or empathize with her?
You are welcome to share them below.